It all started again last night.
I got coffee with a new friend and loved getting to hear about a new-to-me life. She was filling me in on her journey to her beautiful photography business. The way she got there was so clearly from the Lord that you couldn’t miss it. God provided her direction in a way that basically laid her business in her lap. I was so encouraged by her story, but when I got in my car to go home, the little voice in my head emerged.
“Man, why hasn’t God been that clear with what I’m supposed to do with MY life? God, why haven’t you dropped an opportunity like that in MY lap?”
I got home, started dinner, and the thoughts continued. I got distracted by my husband coming home and the little voice went away for awhile. We finished dinner and as we sat on the couch I got on social media, per-usual. I post a lot for this blog and for health coaching, and once I opened up my Facebook app the little voice was back.
“Man, a lot of people are commenting and liking her post. Why aren’t they commenting on my post? Where did I word things wrong? Do people even like me?” (Seriously… this little voice gets carried away.)
I vented a bit to Brady as we went to bed but truly felt silly by the words coming out of my mouth. I tried to forget about it and eventually fell asleep.
As I woke up this morning, I got on my phone to see what I’d missed throughout the night on Facebook. (This is seriously a bad habit.) As I did, I saw that a friend of a friend had just started a blog, so I checked it out. It’s beautiful. The pictures are crisp and clear, her words are genuine and funny, and the style of the blog kind of made me swoon. And what do you know… the little voice found me again.
“Why can’t I write like this? Am I ever going to be able to take pictures like that? Will we ever live in a house that beautiful? Why am I not funny?”
This was my breaking point. I have come to know Satan and his tactics quite well over the past few years, and the lies of comparison and not being “enough” are one of his favorites in my life. It was time to take this to the Lord.
I truly, deeply HATE the way Satan can fill our head with lies. I HATE that I’m not alone in this and that so many others struggle in the same way. And overall, I HATE when the enemy advances in this spiritual battle we’re fighting and makes us feel like our spot on the front lines isn’t enough.
So what do we do? What do we do when our mind is filled with lies and we don’t know how to get back to truth?
First, I think it’s important to realize how detrimental this tactic is to God’s Kingdom. If we know how toxic it is, we have more motivation to fight it. So how does the enemy filling us with lies hurt the Kingdom?
- When we start to believe the lies that we aren’t enough, we stop exercising who God created us to be. I know that when my head is full of lies, I don’t want to work at anything God has put before me because I don’t feel like I’m good enough to do it.
- When we decide that we aren’t enough, a piece of the church goes missing. Our distinct calling falls to the wayside for as long as we believe we’re not who God has made us to be.
- When we decide we aren’t enough, we tend to forget about all of God’s goodness. His provision, compassion, faithfulness, gentleness, direction… it’s all forgotten about like a coin that rolls under a dresser. Our focus is blurry and in a pretty sad place.
How awful is that? Doesn’t it just make your blood boil a bit, knowing that enemy has accomplished this in your life a time or two or three?
Ok, so now that you’re ready to battle, here are some of my tips that I’ve learned over the years to help you fight.
- TALK TO SOMEONE ASAP. Gosh, I can’t emphasize this one enough. Go to that person who loves you and is a safe place and tell them what’s going on in your head. This person can help you see the difference between a truth and a lie and help you dig out of the pit. Be honest with them, even if the lies seem silly and crazy to say out loud. Jesus gave us brothers and sisters for a reason!
- Write down the truths God says about you. What do you know to be true about your life? I’m going to share the truths I wrote down this morning, and a lot of them are probably true for you, too. Write them down. Memorize them. Whatever you need to do to fight.
- God has called me to be a wife
- God has called us to help plant a church
- God has put blogging on my heart
- God has given me a heart to help women
- I am a daughter of the King (2 Cor. 6:18)
- The Lord delights in me (Psalm 18:19)
- I have been forgiven because I am loved (John 3:16)
- I can trust God with my life (Isaiah 26:3-4)
- Work on acknowledging the lies. I am learning that this is a skill that takes practice. The faster we can realize that what we are thinking isn’t necessarily true, the faster we can attack in the battle over our minds. Find the trigger points in your life of where the lies tend to start and be on guard.
So, my sweet sisters, I hate that we have to deal with this. But as long as we are here on earth, we are going to have to battle. Know that you aren’t alone and that we are fighting together.
You are loved, and you are enough.